seriously driving me nuts

9:15 AM

Its been almost a million years since I wrote a post. In the past I usually blog only when I am feeling down or feel a little more human. Kind of weird to write something again and I'm not too sure if there are anybody still reading it considering I kept it private for a while. Anyway I just merely wanted to share my joy about my sister's impending marriage. Yes she is finally engaged. Although marriage has always been in the picture and expected since they bought a flat together. Its still not considered complete without a proposal and the actual wedding itself. Honestly, I'm really happy that he has finally proposed. I can finally have the biggest room! haha no that is not the real point. As much as I bicker with him a lot and he finds me a ted annoying. Ok maybe more than just a little. It doesn't matter I guess cause I never ever got along well with any of her past boyfriends. Can't hide the irritating and annoying nature that I have. However I think they make a wonderful couple and that they will be happy together. Even though I may not show it or express it but when I saw the ring that was being bought I really felt happy for her. Kind of the sort that wishes her everlasting happiness.=) Nonetheless I am happy that a wedding is in the plans and hopefully some time later a niece of nephew will be in the making =) Its gonna feel really funny and weird when she is married and going to live in her own place but I guess I will worry and feel emo about that when it happens. Even though we may not be the best or closest pair of siblings, but I still love her just as much as for the people that I do not express my love for on an everyday basis. Ok now that I got that out of my chest I shall continue emoing about the fact that its Sunday. Well at least I am a step closer to my trip now =) Optimism in everything that I do.

11:24 PM

So it seems like its on replay mode. Repeating over and over again. It will never come to an end.

7:46 AM

This blog has officially been pronounced dead. Why? Because I've been so busy these days. The only thing that can keep me occupied for such a long period of time is my beloved job!! I work and work and work and work and work and work and work and work and work, take a break and work and work and work and work and work and work and work and work and work. You pretty much can get the drift. Don't get me wrong. I am not totally complaining about it. Well I have to admit it I am not in love with it. But things are getting better and I have sort of accustomed to the lifestyle. My work is not improving and I do not foresee it improving either, but what makes life a little easier and bearable are my colleagues. I'm starting to get to know them a hell lot better and I'm glad to have them around. My job isn't that bad afterall!

9:17 AM

Why is it that in every drama when there are two guys after the female lead, one a jerk, the other being the sweetest nicest person on earth, yet the female lead will always choose the jerk that loves her. Is that why people always say nice guys finish last? Maybe when a jerk shows concern, it makes the concern seem extra special since it is something rare. When the nice guy shows the same level of concern, it is being treated as something expected since he is so nice. Anyway this is totally random and meaningless. I should stop watching stupid dramas, but I have so much free time on hand before starting work. Now I also wish to have a guardian angel =)

12:41 PM

If there's one thing I hate (ok I hate a lot of other things too), its the feeling of me being in the way of something or someone.

3:25 AM

Why is it that some people cannot understand that there are some things in which a special group of people just cannot help it but just be afraid of. In the dictionary, there is this word called fear. You may be a daredevil who is not afraid of anything in this world of give a hoot about anything. However at the other end of the spectrum there are people who afraid of all sorts of things, ranging from water to animals to ghosts or even potato. As for me, my biggest fear is the god damn bloody cockroaches. Its fine if you are not afraid of them, but do understand that there are this unique group of people who just cannot help but feel afraid of them. Its not something that I can control, neither is it something I can overcome overnight. Forget it give me 10 years and I may not even stop freaking out when I see those bloody brown shitty assholes. Give these group of people a break and be a little more understanding. WE ARE TRULY AFRAID. If given a choice I wish I am bloody not afraid of them, daring to take a bloody newspaper and chase after them until they vanquish from my sight. Sadly, I am not! I can only wail, scream and freeze when I see them. Its like I got possessed at that very instant and I cannot move. Yet the bloody cockroach will continue roaming around me until some knight in shining armour will come to my rescue.

Perhaps my fear of cockroaches has trained me to have an acute sense of judgement when it comes to them. Somehow I have a way of attracting them and I can sense their presence before I even see them. 7 out of 10 times I am pretty darn accurate. 30 mins ago I heard a flutter sound. Down my stomach I guessed that it is my good old friend. However no matter how I look around, I don't see it and decided that it was a figment of my imagination. Upon letting my guard down the freaking asshole appeared. It was humongous. How long have it been living in my bloody house and what the hell has it been eating to allow it to grow so freaking huge. I screamed for my Dad like never before. He came in thinking what could have happened. When I told him that there is a cockroach in my room, he looked around but somehow that sneaky bastard escaped his preying eyes. He got annoyed and left the room not putting any extra effort to hunt that asshole down. 10 mins later I saw that bitch again in the living room and I shouted for him not daring to see where that scum of the earth has ran to. This time round my Mum came out too and the two old folks were looking for the cockroach. Once again that asshole managed to run away somehow. My parents ended up scolding me for making so much noise over a bloody cockroach and asked me to get over it. Why can't people understand that I am afraid?!?!?! I don't bloody know how I am going to sleep now knowing that that sucker is running free in my house and might just sneak into my room again at night =( I am scared but nobody cares!!! Argh!!!! May all the cockroaches in this world die!!!!!!!! Now I am just sitting on my bed in fear, looking out for the brown shit that might pounce on me anytime =( Its gonna be a long night =(

9:15 AM